The last few weeks of my pregnancy have been pretty difficult. I have felt really weak and sick in the mornings, backaches throughout the day, and restless sleep. I was really having a hard time with it. One night Allen and I started talking about this last month of pregnancy. He reminded me that yes this last month might might be hard on my body, but this is what we prayed for... the blessings of Sabey Baby outweigh the difficulties of what may come. I just realized how quickly I forgot the trial of infertility. How quickly I forgot the heartache month after month, year after year of not being pregnant. All I ever wanted was to be a mother and to not have that opportunity seemed so devastating. How quickly I forgot some our dear friends and family who want so badly to have children and they too haven't been given that opportunity. There I was complaining when I realized that they would give almost anything to have this kind of backache. Because of our previous infertility, I don't know how many times I am going to be able to get pregnant. I realized that I need to enjoy and cherish every kick, every restless night, and the awkward belly in front of me. We are so excited for Sabey Baby to come. We just began our ninth month. This is it! Our dear friend Shelly took these fabulous family pictures for us. Thanks Shelly. (The pictures might have been about a month ago. You may not see many more belly shots after these at 32 weeks.) For our dear friends and family.... I had a hard time for a long time. Maybe not to the same extent, but we understand a small portion of the waiting, the hoping, the disappointment, the frustration, the sadness, the loneliness, the optimism...
We pray for you every night. I am sorry I was so selfish in forgetting... we are all mothers... you are a mother.
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posted at 4:07 am huh?? I am sorry that it has been a hard month, but it will be worth it in a month! We are so happy for you guys and Cam, you are beautiful!!! Seriously, both of your eyes (you and Allens...not both of your two eyes) absolutely radiate happiness!! Can't wait to see you guys at Christmas and meet that little one!
Your pictures are so cute! Pregnancy itself is a beautiful and special thing, but all the "joys" that came with it are definitely hard to deal with sometimes, so don't feel bad about complaining! Good luck with your last month, for me it was the hardest one just because you are so anxious to meet your baby already!
You guys are adorable! I'm so excited to see pictures of your little one. I know how you feel with the last month of pregnancy, I had a hard time walking with my last one because he was sitting so low. But it will all me over soon, hang in there! Good luck with labor I hope it's fast and easy!
Cameo, how are you?! Hang in there!! :) Are you having a boy or girl? Wish you the best!
I completely understand this. We had trouble getting pregnant too--tried for several months, then miscarried at 12 weeks after I'd gone through all the morning sickness etc, and then had to wait to try again a few more months. Thankfully I was able to get pregnant with Cameron quickly, but it's hard to remember how blessed I was when I was dealing with yet another pregnancy and another set of morning sickness and would I even be able to carry this baby all the way through? Life is so fragile--the ability to give life is so fragile. We learn wonderful things from these experiences. I hope that your last month of pregnancy goes smoothly, enjoy it! Before you know it, your little one will be here!
You look great, and so happy!
Those are great pictures! You're almost there! Yay!
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